every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

I haven't even thought this whole thing through yet. I haven't realized that I'm leaving my friends or they are leaving me. Ugh...I don't know which is worse. I DON"T WANT TO EVER LEAVE. I want to have a community of my friends. Just us and our kids forever. They'll marry each other, they'll play with each other, they'll only want to hang out with each other. That would be wonderful! I am officially not going to have some of these or most of these friends at my fingertips anymore. Oh...that just kills me. The question is when will we see each other again after the weddings this summer? O well, I'll survive somehow, right? Somehow..... But who knows how.

Closing Time by Semisonic (Grad Song)
Closing time - time for you to go out, go out into the world.
Closing time - turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time - one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time - you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home. Take me home...
Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
Closing time - this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found a friend.
Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...
Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from...
Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

All I need is a Diploma

I just got back from my last class, I gave some wise insight about being older, and turned in my paper and got the heck out of there. It was awesome!! I'm done!!! It feels awesome except for the fact that now I have to pack and that's not fun. But it doesn't matter, I'm graduating soon...very soon! Woo-Hoo! Now I'm ready for the summer. Let it begin! Before heading back to Shipshe, I'm going camping with the rest of the crew which I'm super excited and then I work in the Crap Barn! Oh yippee, I can't wait. Oh wait, I can! I'm excited about all the weddings. And I'm excited about going to the movies.

But in the midst of this ending, I'm sad and don't want to leave. It's just so frustrating. I just don't feel ready to actually move on and start to grow up. I guess something exciting to look forward to VS in Baltimore. I'm super excited about that. Man, everything is looking great as of right now and I'm just super stoked and ecstatic about everything. It's awesome. Well I should get back to packing. UGH!!

Chasing Cars

My life these last few days have felt crazy. I have big projects due and I just have no motivation and I don't know the best way of doing it, and I don't want to do it. Yeah, that's a great combination for trying to getting things done and turned in on time. Right now I just feel like I'm running around a million miles a minute and I still don't know what I'm suppose to be doing exactly. Oh well, I'm sure it will eventually get figured out right? I hope so at least.

Last night was great to be able to hang out with friends who I never seem to see anymore. I went to with Briana, Katie Lehman, and Jackson out to someones cabin for the night and it was splendid. We had lots of fun. It was great to just talk and just listen to what everyone, well the 4 of us, had to say. We asked questions pretty much the entire night, played euchre, ate food, and answered more questions, o and froze to death...well I did at least because I didn't bring my stinking sleeping bag. How stupid? But it was a good time of fellowship. I'll miss them all when we're all separate and in different states.

Right now, I'm watching the Sound of Music. Oh Julie Andrews how she makes me happy, "in every possible way." I should go now and work on all my crazy amounts of things.

SURPRISE!

So this weekend is my dad's 50th Birthday! I'm excited because me and another friend are going home. Well she's going to Goshen and I'm going home but I haven't been home all semester. It's just exciting because it's the end of the school year and I'm just ready to be done. And I get to see old friends who I haven't seen since Christmas. That seems forever and a day away but of course it's not. Well I'm just getting really excited because I'm just ready to leave now. Too bad I have to go to work tomorrow. UGH!!! Okay....well that's the update in my life. Other than those anxious feelings there is nothing else exciting going on in my life. I'm just ready for Easter Break......Please come sooner!