just another day

Here I am bored again and putting off homework. Yeah, I just don't want to do it anymore. It's definitely Senior-itis and Spring is officially here. Anyways....

For my practicum I've been working at the Boys & Girls Club here in Harrisonburg. Man I have my days where I love my job and then I have days where I hate it. I want to cry and just do nothing for the rest of my life. I'm ready to quit and give up on everything I have been working for over the past four years. How crazy is that? I am almost willing to just give up when I have come this far. That's beside the point but in actuality, today was a pretty good day. Some days those kids are just too much drama for me. Some days I want to pull their arms off and slap them with their own arm because they are just being ridiculous. But then I just have to think I'm being ridiculous. What the heck am I thinking? I guess I'm just caught up in the moment. Of course, I WOULD NEVER DO SUCH A THING but somedays it's just super hard to not ever have respect or have someone who should be listening to you listen to you. Ok that's off track again but lately one of the girls who shows no one respect and is just full of attitude has been pretty good around me. I am impressed at how great she has been. It's been great trying to get to know her but of course, she has her moments. Overall my experience has been really good and I'm glad I chose the Boys & Girls Club even though I hate it some days.

On the other side, I've been struggling with couples lately. Why does everyone who is getting married have to spend 24/7 with their fiance instead of spending time with their friends who won't be around after they get married or after graduation? Why? What the sam hill are they thinking? It seems like they only think about themselves. Maybe not but it feels like that because what about me. Ugh this whole thing about being a senior and leaving and moving on with our lives is slowly becoming a reality and more difficult to deal with. I'm not sure what I'm really feeling. It just seems to be too much. Well at least I'm ok with being single. I have so much to look forward to and to be happy about even if it means I'm not sharing it with anyone.

I hear homework calling my name....unfortunately I should go....

New Beginnings

Here I am avoiding the little homework I have like always. I feel so pathetic because I just never have the motivation to do it. All I really have to do is read and write a little paper which isn't even due until Tuesday. And plus I have some practicum things to work on but yet there is no motivation to even look at those things. Yeah that's basically my life.

Life has been pretty great these past couple of weekends. I am just ready to move on and out of college. Well sort of. Of course I'm scared of the new, unknown, big, scary world that seems to be falling apart all around us but I have faith that God will keep me comfortable somehow. I plan on doing Mennonite Volunteer Service. I am so excited about it. I have been looking forward to VS for quite some time now which is sort of the reason why I began this blog. I figured at some point, having a blog will be important for me to keep family and friends aware of the new adventures. Plus I realized this is probably a great way to unwind for myself and express whatever I may be feeling at the time. Maybe more like a journal. Anyways, I am just getting ahead of myself before anything major begins to happen I suppose.

I don't have much more to say basically because I am just trying to fill up space so my blog isn't too empty. So, until next then. peace